There is a scholarly article about the implied non-reader. Yes. No mistake. It is not about the ‘implied reader’ which is an old hat, really, but, indeed, about the ‘implied non-reader’. In essence, the article is about the craze to publish in the academic world, even if you haven’t really anything new to say. Anyway, no academic publishes anymore because they have anything important to say, but because they need to collect brownie point, nowadays called h-index or impact factor. So they publish and then make sure they get cited. The focus has shifted from the content, to strategies to grow your h-index.

When I started to write this blog, I wrote for the implied ‘non-reader’. I didn’t really think anyone would read this. Then when I realised that there were actually people reading it, I got a bit nervous and self-consious. Your writing is better when writing for the implied non-reader because you just write for yourself the way you feel and the way you see life and the world. Once you start writing to the implied reader, you start worrying about other people, what they think and what they feel, and you start not writing certain things because they are private or could be offensive, or even libel.

Patrick today had another session with his new speech therapist and it almost seemed like if he had decided not to cooperate. As if they didn’t get on with each other. As if they didn’t connect. We’ll give it another go and the re-consider. Out in the park Pat discovered that a good Innocent smoothie is still a favourite – no bother even drinking it out of the bottle!

Progress with the building work has been slow last week. When you look at the picture your first thought might be that they put up the block, but in the wrong place and without any cement. The thing is that they did not start yet laying the block. That will happen tomorrow. It’ll be finished in 2-3 days. Next will be the roof. And it’ll be downhill from there!

Today’s German Music Tip
Gregor Meyle, Keine Ist Wie Du. This is what you could call ‘schmalzig’, but I kind of like it, what Joan Baez called ‘nostalgic’ in Diamonds and Rust.
What’s hot
Blocks
What’s cold
Looking back
The German word/phrase/verse of the day
Volle Pulle!

An  Saol  Live your Life , An Saol eile

I promised myself a German tour before the end of the summer. Before returning home. Home. Connecting with previous lives. Saying good-bye to it. Not forever, maybe, but for the foreseeable future, most likely.

Today it was Cologne, the first ‘stop’ and just for a few hours, between the time my train arrived and the time the only affordable Ryanair flight out of Germany to Dublin today was going to leave. You could be in different minds, I guess, about whether doing something like this makes sense at all. Sometimes we all do things that don’t make sense. But feel good and feel right.

Back in Cologne, for a few hours, I went back almost 35 years in my life. Studying. Kinda. Without a bother in the world. Carefree.

Just arrived back home. Earlier than I’d thought because I got a really nice surprise lift from one of our daughters. Almost couldn’t get into the house because of all the blocks waiting to become the walls of Pádraig’s new rooms. So great to see them!

On the plane I talked to a German woman who is coming over to Ireland for a week’s holidays. She is a Biodancer instructor. She told me about her work and the effects of biodancing, how biodancing can be used to express yourself, to communicate, to experience others in dancing. She said that physical contact, touch, is so important for our well-being.

Whether you believe in coincidences or not, I think there was a very valuable lesson here for Pádraig and for us when caring for Pádraig. The important of touch and physical contact for his physical and mental well-being.

When I left this morning, Pádraig had just woken up and was getting ready for the day. He had a good day, with his usual meals and the walk in the park. There is almost a sense of routine, or normality.

Today’s German Music Tip
GENETIKK, Wünsch dir was. Das Leben ist kein Wunschkonzert. Du musst dran glauben und dann erfüllt sich was. Super Rap on a Mission.
What’s hot
Timetravel
What’s cold
Being stuck in time
The German word/phrase/verse of the day
Hasse keinen Frisör deme das erzählen kann?

An  Saol  Live your Life , An Saol eile

50 years. It’s 50 years ago to the day that – what? Guess.

Well, music changed and acoustic went electric and one of the most influential songs ever was recorded based on notes written with pencil on paper that was auctioned off not too long ago for several million dollars.

How does it feel, how does it feel?
To be without a home
Like a complete unknown, like a rolling stone

Someone wrote a whole book about it. The song about a woman that was really about the feeling of a whole generation, the feeling of being free, independent, and alone.

We had a another good day today. With some home help that made me think several times how useful (or not) it is to have help at home. It’s a funny kind of thing: they are taking away my time with Pádraig, I could do what they do far better (that what I think, it might not reflect reality), so in a way I resend them being here – but at the same time, without their help, life around me would have collapsed.

Today the weather was almost ideal. Nice and sunny but not too hot. We went for a walk along the street we walk along almost every day. Into the shop we go into so often. Looking at the papers, at the stuff they sell. And found two real gems.

Look at this. It’s not what you think it is.

Because it’s not a drill. It’s a Dr. Vac ear cleaner. Look at the woman on the picture. She’s not drilling a whole into her head. She is cleaning her ears. With a smile on her face. Now tell me, who on earth would come up with something like this? And more, who would be buying it?

The second picture we came across is something that was ‘inaugurated’ recently by two senior members of the Hamburg Senate to celebrate diversity in the city, in preparation of the Christopher Street Day (CSD) Parade in Hamburg that will take place on 01 August. Here you go.

One of these is a Lesbenampel, the other is a Schwulenampel. Not to put any ideas into our ministers head…

We have been a bit like rolling stones, how does it feel to be without a home, without a direction home. But all that will change and tomorrow night, late night and via Cologne  because Bremen is out-of-reach expensive, imagine that, I be back home, to meet the builders.

Today’s German Music Tip
Cro, Einmal um die Welt. 27m clicks can’t be wrong.
What’s hot
Directions home
What’s cold
To be on your own
The German word/phrase/verse of the day
Anfangen ist leicht, Beharren eine Kunst.

An  Saol  Live your Life , An Saol eile

We are both tired. In a good way.

The ‘routine’ in the morning can take some time, especially if you’ve got it. And it’s nice to have it. No rush. Nobody waiting. No knock on the door. Yet, we got the three meals in, the Stehbett, the Viva la MotoMed (remember that one?) – for the legs and for the arms (!), we went out twice – the first time we were just outside the door when it started to rain so we went straight back in, we watched the silliest German TV programme wondering how they have the cheek to do stuff like this, and I read out loud the next few pages of the guidebook to Alaska.

Cathal Murray is still on holidays it seems (how many holidays do they get at RTÉ???) so it was another Sunday morning with Carol Moran on the Weekend on One playing beautiful music. One of the first songs she played in the morning was The Dutchman. When I heard it, it stopped me right in my tracks and I texted her this. – Earlier in the year, a brilliant documentary was broadcast on Tipperary man Liam Clancy which is really worth watching (and in which he reveals that Bob Dylan stole his girlfriend).

When we went for a walk today, we saw what looked like a new telephone booth. Who on earth would bother putting up a new telephone booth, I thought. So we went to have a look. Turned out that what looked like a telephone booth (Telefonzelle) was, in fact, a book exchange (Bücherzelle). Isn’t that ingenious: the idea is that you can bring your books or CDs and leave them there for others to take it. Volunteers check regularly to make sure that the place is kept in order.

In case you were wondering: we still got no acknowledgement of the receipt of our letters to the Attorney General or the Governor, never mind an answer.

But today, I won’t worry about that. Because I’m tired. In a good way.

Today’s German Music Tip
Johannes Oerding, Alles brennt. Zwischen schwarzen Wolken seh’ ich ein kleines bisschen Blau… Alles wird gut… This song got almost 5m hits – where have I been? Just heard it for the first time…
What’s hot
Let us go to the banks of the ocean
What’s cold
Long ago I used to be a young man
The German word/phrase/verse of the day
Des Teufels liebstes Möbelstück ist die lange Bank.

An  Saol  Live your Life , An Saol eile

While getting Pádraig ready for the day, I was listening to RTÉ. Someone announced that Ireland had decided to take on 600 refugees over the next two years.

Later on, while having breakfast, I looked through the Hamburger Morgenpost, Hamburg’s Irish Times, from last Tuesday, someone had left it behind, with a few pages on the refugee crisis in Europe and in Hamburg. There are between 200 and 300 hundred refugees arriving in the city of Hamburg alone. Every day.

Caring for Pádraig, on your own, is really nice, in one way, and really tiring, in another. After the morning routine, I cleaned up the place a bit, we had a small lunch, went out for a long walk, got porridge and a steak in the shops, back to have a bit to eat, some exercises in bed, and the day was almost over.

Two things happened today for the first time.

The first was that I fried a bit of steak, minced it and shared it with Pádraig. Very little. It was full of flavours and texture. Steak. The first time in over two years. – So, he had beer, now a steak. What’ll be next?

The second was me trying to read aloud a book in English. I’m not good at reading out aloud. Never mind in English. In this case, Pádraig didn’t have a choice. It was from a very special book one of Pádraig’s friends had brought with her on her last, recent visit. It was a guide book to Alaska. It was good that I read it out aloud. Because every word on that first page trying to capture the essence of Alaska made you want to go more, and more. – It’s a pipedream. Well, let’s see.

By the way, the blocks have arrived in Iona Road and will be laid starting on Monday!

Today’s German Music Tip
Leyk & Lockvogel, Ne Sekunde Sommer. Du im Urlaub, ich im Regen… Aus dem Asphalt weißer Sandstrand… Techno it’s called, I think. The video has a really well-made opening!
What’s hot
Alaska – there’s no place on earth like it.
What’s cold
Australia – it snowed there today. Can you imagine?
The German word/phrase/verse of the day
Entschleunigen

An  Saol  Live your Life , An Saol eile

This could be a really nice summer’s evening. I’m sitting with the doors wide open and the warm air is floating through the apartment. Sitting beside Pádraig (who is listening in) I was looking for good music and came across a song from way back then.

Here is one of my favourite songs from forty years ago. I had almost forgotten about it. It’s amazing that it got 5.5m hits because it’s not a song that people watching youtube would have heard much about it, I would have thought. The song is Diamonds and Rust and its by Joan Baez, who wrote it about Bob Dylan (not sure whether he ever wrote one about Joan Baez?). When I was listening and reading one of the comments, i learned that there is also a version by Heavy Metal group Judas Pries of Diamonds and Rust and, although I’m not really a fan of heavy metal, this one ain’t bad.

Pat left in the morning to spend the weekend with Pádraig’s older sister. His younger sister is walking the ‘camino’! So, it’s quiet here and it will be a weekend to spend time together with Pádraig, without work or any pressures.

We started this in the afternoon, took it easy, went for a walk, shared a really healthy home made soup.

It is a really nice summer’s evening, all diamonds and no rust.

Today’s German Music Tip
Andreas Bourani, Engel fliegen einsam. This is really a Christina Stürmer song, but it’s not a bad version of it! Du und ich gemeinsam…
What’s hot
Diamonds
What’s cold
Rust
The German word/phrase/verse of the day
Wer rasted, der rostet. (There’s the ‘rust’ again:)

An  Saol  Live your Life , An Saol eile

As I said, the extension is making progress. Next week, it’ll be very visible, once the walls will be going up. – None of us can wait…

I wanted to share a picture of the front page of the very popular (and very entertaining) German newspaper die Bildzeitung.

Angela saves Greece, the paper writes in big bold letters on his front page, only to add: with our hard-earned money. What a fine sense of humour!!

The Germans are having a great time living, but a hard time supporting weaker economies, for the time being. They are negotiating pay rises for their own workers of 4% and they are paying for it with the interest from much poorer countries. – Anyhow…

I’ve made my mind up. For decades I didn’t know where I belonged. On Tuesday when a friend collected me from the airport and gave me the country’s official marathon shirt as a present, it was confirmed, if that was needed. There are still many other more important things to be sorted out but this will definitely be one. I want to be amongst all those people in this big hall and become a fellow country man.

Pádraig had his usual physio today, a half an hour go on his bike, a long walk on a warm summer’s afternoon. I am looking forward to the weekend and time to catch up with him. The days during the week are so busy for all of us, it’s incredible. His doctor wanted to come today before he’ll be on two weeks’ holidays but then didn’t manage to. In reality, it didn’t matter that much, Pádraig is ok.

On Monday, however, a dentist will be calling to the house, the first time for some time for a dentist to see him. We haven’t told Pádraig yet.

Today’s German Music Tip
KC Rebell feat. Moé, Bist Du real. This is pure pop, with a huge following.
What’s hot
Warm summer afternoons
What’s cold
Being busy to be busy
The German word/phrase/verse of the day
Pustekuchen

An  Saol  Live your Life , An Saol eile

This is another short post after an amazing and long day. I’ll remember it as the beginning of An Saol because of the generosity and trust of someone that, so to speak, pushed me over the edge and, in her own words, got me to a point of no return. More later. (Isn’t the suspense almost unbearable?)

Pádraig is doing extraordinarily well physically and, it appears, has really established a good connection with his OT – I get the feeling they are both amazing each other. They are finding ways to communicate and connect.

Once I get a bit of time, I’ll write up a short plan for the first twelve months of activity for An Saol. I’ll also start a register of jobs for anyone who wants to help. Too late tonight to do this, but hopefully by the end of the week, I’ll share it with you.

Today’s German Music Tip
K.I.Z., Hurra die Welt geht unter ft. Henning May. Another group I never heard of. Another rapper. The title is a little misleading. It doesn’t celebrate the “Weltuntergang” per se, but the disappearing of the world where money is everything and people come a distant second. Not a bad song and makes me think whether rap ain’t as bad as I always thought.
What’s hot
Doing
What’s cold
Waiting
The German word/phrase/verse of the day
Des Teufels liebstes Möbelstück ist die lange Bank.

An  Saol  Live your Life , An Saol eile

Back in Dublin. Tired.

It’s late and I am too tired to write.

Pádraig had a brilliant day today. In the morning, he surprised his OT with a level of co-operation she had never expected him to be capable capable of. A huge improvement.

More tomorrow.

There are people who plan. And there are people who don’y.

When Pádraig traveled, he was a Dreamboater, floating down the stream. Exploring. Allowing for surprises. The unforeseen. No plan.

Today I tried the impossible: find my way through mountains of paper, organising them in heaps, stapling some of them together, punching holes into them, sorting them in arch lever folders, as one does in Germany. I failed of course and didn’t finish this mammoth task. But I am determined and will finish it tomorrow morning before going to Bremen and on to Dublin for the weekly visit to the building site.

Pádraig had a busy day today. After a physio and speech therapy, he had two visitors from Dublin, old friends, and great company. The visit is so special as we all know how much it costs both in time and money to make it out to Hamburg. Each visit brings back home the reality that Pádraig is not where he should be: close to his friends, close to the poetry, the music, the chat, the craic, the company. Won’t be long now.

We were thinking about putting a lift into the Conradh. Getting tickets to next year’s festivals. And in the meantime, cinema nights, readings, sessions at home. There ain’t no limits!

I have started to think again a bit more about An Saol. Also talked about it to people. While the aim is to have a house an land where persons with severe brain injuries can meet, get therapies, where there’s a respite service, where people who can’t stay at home can find a second home – work can start right now. The ‘house’ will come at some point.

In the meantime: we can provide information to families and victims, we can organise courses and educational activities for families and professionals alike, we can share sustainable therapy services across families who need them at home, as well as affordable and sustainable caring services, we could establish a register of caring, nursing, medical, and therapy professional who’d be happy to help.

If I am not wrong, you could employ a full time therapist capable of servicing 3-4 families for what you would pay individually if you paid for five hours of therapy per week, or just one hour per day. While the HSE pays 1,600 (in some cases +300) euro per week to nursing homes, home help could be organised for a fraction of that. Wouldn’t that make sense?

These days, a lot of Dreamboaters are on Tour. On the Road. On the Camino, caminante no hay camino. Traveling. Exploring. Going down rivers nobody went on before. In rainforests, on mountain tops, on long walks and endless bus and train trips. Sharing their dreams. Save travels!

Today’s German Music Tip
Rosenstolz, Wenn du aufwachst. One of Pádraig’s favourite German musicians.
What’s hot
Dreamboaters on Tour
What’s cold
Taking the well-trodden path
The German word/phrase/verse of the day
Aller Anfang ist schwer.

An  Saol  Live your Life , An Saol eile