Greta

“We are striking because we have done our homework, and they have not.”

Greta Thunberg
at the climate protest in Hamburg, Germany, 1 March 2019

When I was Greta’s age, I was afraid of war. I protested against nuclear rockets being stationed in Germany. But I never went on a school strike, if I remember correctly. And, as far as I know, I never caught the attention of an American President.

I was ‘chilled out’ without anybody having to tell me. I don’t think I was even too angry about what the older generations were doing. They were a lost cause, not really worth worrying about too much. I had tons of fun playing guitar, singing, being with my friends, making fun about the threat from the East. While I wasn’t part of the ‘No Future’ or ‘Drop Out’, Null Bock Generation, I knew I was not going to achieve World Peace. If they wanted to push the Red Button, they were going to do so anyway and there was nothing I was going to be able to do about it.

A few decades later, I am wondering: Is there something like ‘futurisation of the past’, or ‘archeology of the future ‘? Is the future ‘destiny’ or can we determine it by our actions?

Difficult questions don’t have a black and white answer. There are things in life, in our future, that we cannot determine or influence. And there are things which we can absolutely make or not make happen.

We can do things to change the future. And things that have a purpose, things that make sense, things that have meaning, are easier to do than boring purposeless things.

Here is an example: if you want to improve the movement of your hands and your fingers, you could just open and close your hands a few times – as an exercise; or you could practice your grip, hold on to something and then squeeze it so much that it flops out of your hand – like a bit of soap.

 

In the process you wash your hands thoroughly and have a bit of fun letting the warm water swash around your fingers and hands.

All of a sudden, there is an obvious, immediate reason to move your hands and fingers and it feels nice being able to do it. The motivational barometre goes up sky high. As a result, your hand movements and your coordination gets better and better. It’s an action to influence the future.

We know that if we don’t move, our organs will shut down and we will die. We know that keeping fit will keep us healthy. We know that our actions will destroy the planet. And we know that if we wash our hands regularly, we help to prevent the spread of infectious diseases.

Greta has done her homework. She knows the difference between destiny and futurization, the idea of predicting potential outcomes of our actions.

Greta also knows that many people have not done their homework, many of them in power. When will they ever learn?

I have changed my mind. I will go for world peace. Save the planet.
Create a life worth living for those who have been written off.

Pete Seeger: Where Have All the Flowers Gone?

On July 26, 1956, the House of Representatives voted 373 to 9 to cite Pete Seeger and seven others (including playwright Arthur Miller) for contempt, as they failed to cooperate with House Un-American Activities Committee (HUAC) in their attempts to investigate alleged subversives and communists. Pete Seeger testified before the HUAC in 1955. In one of Pete’s darkest moments, when his personal freedom, his career, and his safety were in jeopardy, a flash of inspiration ignited this song. The song was stirred by a passage from Mikhail Sholokhov’s novel “And Quie Flows the Don”. Around the world the song traveled and in 1962 at a UNICEF concert in Germany, Marlene Dietrich, Academy Award-nominated German-born American actress, first performed the song in French, as “Qui peut dire ou vont les fleurs?” Shortly after she sang it in German. The song’s impact in Germany just after WWII was shattering. It’s universal message, “let there be peace in the world” did not get lost in its translation. To the contrary, the combination of the language, the setting, and the great lyrics has had a profound effect on people all around the world. May it have the same effect today and bring renewed awareness to all that hear it.

Karl

“The problem with the world is that the intelligent people are full of doubts,
while the stupid ones are full of confidence.”

Heinrich Karl, better known as Henry Charles, Bukowski is not everybody’s cup of tea, or whatever you’re having yourself.

He was one of those writers you had to read when I was growing up, along with others, like Kerouac and Ginsberg and Castaneda. They were the literary equivalent to Dylan, Cohen, Joplin, Seeger and Guthrie. My first attempts to like them resulted in the same reaction I had when I puffed my first cigarette or drank my first glass of beer: awful. I kept trying. And the effort paid off. While I switched over from beer to red wine over the years. And I stopped smoking altogether. I ended up liking those poets and singers.

Over the last few weeks, I started to think that I should organise an IronMann Challenge. Pádraig liked the idea. I liked the Germanic sound of it. Then someone suggested to call it IronMonth, because this is the time it’ll take us to do the classic super triathlon distance: 2.4 mile swim (3.9K), 112 mile bike (180.2K), and 26.2 mile run (42.2K). Pádraig could walk the distance on the Lokomat, cycle on the MOTOmed, and get some help from his friends with the swimming. We’d be joined by the An Saol team and invite the rest of the world to join as well, all to the best of their abilities, all full of confidence, nobody left behind.

I’ll join too, each day doing the same amount of walking/running and cycling Pádraig will do, in terms of time effort. I would even try to come up with a creative solution to the 2.4 mile /  3.9 K swim, should the swimming pools not have opened by the time we’ll do this, say in April or May.

We would post daily updates and reports. Make it fun. Do it with friends and supporters around the world all to the best of their abilities. Share tips for recovery periods and good nutrition. And raise funds for the An Saol Foundation’s development of the Neurological Rehabilitation Centre in the process.

We know that we all need regular exercise and physical fitness. All of us, without exception. And we will demonstrate that all of us can have regular exercise, get fit and finish this extraordinary IronMonth. With a little help from our friends. We’ll leave nobody behind and we’ll give all we have to meet this challenge. As any other challenge we’ve met in our lives.

“If you’re going to try, go all the way. Otherwise, don’t even start. This could mean losing girlfriends, wives, relatives and maybe even your mind. It could mean not eating for three or four days. It could mean freezing on a park bench. It could mean jail. It could mean derision. It could mean mockery–isolation. Isolation is the gift. All the others are a test of your endurance, of how much you really want to do it. And, you’ll do it, despite rejection and the worst odds. And it will be better than anything else you can imagine. If you’re going to try, go all the way. There is no other feeling like that. You will be alone with the gods, and the nights will flame with fire. You will ride life straight to perfect laughter. It’s the only good fight there is.”
                                                        ― Charles Bukowski, Factotum

Let’s be stupid for a month. Full of confidence. We know we can make it.

Would you join us?

Edith

“Our painful experiences aren’t a liability—they’re a gift. They give us perspective and meaning, an opportunity to find our unique purpose and our strength.”

Writes Edith Eger in her book The Choice – Embrace the Possible.

She is 93 years old. When she was 16, in 1944, she was deported to Auschwitz together with her parents and her sister. She survived and published The Choice in 2017 and The Gift in 2020, relating her story of survival and the lessons she learned from her experience. She emigrated to the USA, became a friend of Victor Frankl, received a PhD in Clinical Psychology and works as a psychologist. She believes that while we cannot control what life holds in store for us, we can always choose how we deal with it. The most important question is not why me? but what now?

Pádraig continues with his visits to the Hyperbaric chamber, breathing oxygen at the same pressure one would experience 10m below water.

Each visit lasts just over an hour and there isn’t much happening in that chamber. So we play a finger game.

With one finger. And then the other. It creates a connection and makes us both smile.

The weekend is quiet. On Saturdays, there is no schedule determined by people coming and going. Time to relax.

It is anything but boring. It’s nice, calm, and gives us time to chill out. Probably hard to understand for those who fear for their mental health because they have watched Netflix back and forth, as well as the last episode of the last season of the reality show The Whitehouse.

Over the last weeks two dear people in our life passed away.

Mary Geran was Pádraig’s, his sisters’ and Ireland’s most iconic swimming coaches. She sadly passed away on 11 January. She coached Pádraig when he was small (he was ‘small’ at some stage) and again, more recently and for the last time, with her same unmistakable, distinct voice from the pool side, when he came back to Dublin after his accident, in a pool especially kept open for him by his former coaches, Mary and her colleague and good friend, Patricia, with his sister and myself helping him in the water.

Her funeral had to take place in private because of the current circumstances. But, together with old friends, Pádraig said his good-bye in front of her house. Watching the cortège passing by and talking about Mary, brought tears to his eyes. They changed into a huge smile when we stayed on for a few minutes to say ‘hello’ to old friends he hadn’t seen in years – all distanced and with masks but well in sight.

Ni bheidh mo leitheid aris ann. With Mary, a whole generation and character of people is disappearing. The pool, the kids she taught and coached, were her life. More important than her commitment to achieving the best possible results in galas and competitions, was her commitment to the welfare of the kids she cared for. She was a tough coach with a huge heart. And a great sense of humour. The likes of her will never be seen again.

It was my dream to sail around the world. Unfortunately, I failed to convince my family that this would be a great idea and an incredible adventure. Except for Pádraig, who experimented with his Dreamboat. He would have loved the journey. He wrote the most beautiful note telling me that, after much thought, he had figured out how we could organise that fantastic trip and how I could realise my dream.

Again, unfortunately, I was the stupid, ‘realistic’ adult, too constraint by all sorts of ‘practical’ issues and ‘good, solid’ reasons why this was a beautiful plan but not much more.

Two months before I turned 50, I grabbed the opportunity to join a small former hering boat turned sailing ship, its Dutch owners, a family of four, and some random crew of 12 – not to sail around the world, but to cross the Atlantic as part of the 2009 Tall Ship Challenge.

A few days ago, I heard that Peggy, the wife of my mate James on that incredible adventure, passed away last week. I met James first when I boarded the Tecla in Halifax, the day before we were going to sail across the Atlantic. We spent the next few weeks together on our four-hour watches, from 2-6 am and pm. One early morning, when we went back to our bunks, cold and wet from the ferocious North Atlantic storm outside, James told me that he had decided that next time he was going to cross the Atlantic, it would be with his wife on the Queen Elisabeth. We laughed our heads off at the ridiculous thought of it. (Only a couple of years later that thought became a reality.) When, weeks later, we eventually made it into Belfast harbour, Peggy was there at the pier, welcoming James back on firm land. She had worried a lot about all that could have happened to him and was overjoyed to have him back. The couple spent some time in Ireland with their children and visited us in Dublin. When I heard that Peggy had passed away following a terrible fight with cancer, I could only imagine what pain and sense of loss James must be going through.

Nobody can avoid the pain and suffering life inevitably confronts us with. One terrible pain cannot be compared with another terrible pain. Their is no pain league table. But I would agree with Edith Eger that we have a choice to ask ourselves why me? – or what now?

One is the question of a victim, the other a question of a survivor.

Adapt

There are some really iconic images. This is one.

It’s not staged. There is no expensive and artistic setup.
This is real life. As real as it gets.

You might have to look closely at the picture above.

What I want you to ask yourself is: If you had to plug in a two-pronged plug into one of the available sockets which one would you choose?

On the left, there are two network sockets which you surely wouldn’t try.

That leaves two (Irish) standard sockets for three prongs, with one having an adapter for international plugs.

The temptation to follow the well established regime of plugging a plug into a socket must be enormous. Even if the plug is not really made for that socket you make it fit. Because that is what you do: you put the plug into the socket. Never mind that stupid adapter.

There is a noticeable stretch in the evening now. Days are getting longer and a little brighter. Pádraig and I went for a good walk into the Botanic Gardens today.

He was supporting his head with his left hand as we went into the “Wild Ireland”, a part of the Botanics introducing visitors to the generally well-kept and meticulously planned Gardens to the Wild. A bit of a contradiction but still a great experience, especially if you’re living in the middle of the City. We saw this huge tree with what looked like tons of nests hanging from it. Are those really nests or are these some type of plants using the tree as their host?

Pádraig is cycling his MotoMed better than ever before. Up to 40 rounds per minute, against some resistance, for 45 minutes, a distance of nearly four and a half kilometres, using both of his legs in nearly perfect equal measure.

While he is cycling he is eating and drinking (for energy) and when he is finished he lifts both of his feet out of the pedals.

This is keeping him so fit that it makes me feel jealous. Yes, he is young and, before his accident, was always fitter than I could ever dream to be. And if I think of it, why should that now be different? Because he had an accident seven years ago?

Pádraig has adapted to his condition, the way he is.

My guess is that he could easily do the ironman distance of a 180.2km on his bike, even if it was over a number of days. And he could run the ironman distance of 42.2km in the Lokomat, over a similar number of days. The 3.9km of the ironman swim would have been the easiest part of the triathlon challenge – if swimming pools were open or if we lived on an island surrounded by warm waters and not by the Atlantic and the Irish Sea.

It’s not always the smartest thing to follow the usual regime and practice. Sometimes you have to adapt to get results and motivation and meaning. Or the right socket.

I want to think about that one a little more.

Joan

There but for fortune, love is just a four letter word, the night they drove old dixie down, Joe Hill, diamonds and rust, we shall ovedrcome – definitely.

She sang at the Newport Folk Festival in 1959 for the first time and, ten years later, in 1969, of course, in Woodstock.

It was she who made the songs of her young, a little rough looking and completely unknown friend, Robert Zimmermann, or Bob Dylan, world famous. She mostly sang covers and it was he who gave her almost supernatural voice songs that expressed her thoughts and feelings. In later years, Bob talked about his relationship with Joanie, and invited her to join him on the Rolling Thunder Review, documented in the 2019 movie by Martin Scorsese.

She was eighty yesterday.

She gave a concert in Dortmund’s Westfalenhalle, I forget the year, where I experienced her absolute magic. It’s one of Europe’s biggest indoor venue. She sang, alone and completely solo, playing the guitar, in front of 16.000 people, completely stunned by her.

We were in the An Saol Neuro Rehab Centre one day last week getting ready to go, when Pádraig decided to continue exercising. In and with his wheelchair.

He started doing it all on his own and then, when we encouraged him, continued doing it. No cramps, contractures, or involuntary movements. This was slow and controlled and voluntary. He did this after four hours of therapy. Was he tired or exhausted? To me it looked like as if he was just ready to get going.

It proofed to me that we can be very wrong when we are trying to protect people like Pádraig by not challenging them, by going easy on them, by assuming tiredness when there is energy that needs to be put to a purpose.

We will overcome one day. Because we will continue the Dreamboat journey, being lead and encouraged by people who for many look so vulnerable and desperate that they nearly would prefer to forget them altogether.

Here is to Joan and her eightieth Birthday, her great voice and unbroken spirit.

We will overcome. One Day.

Who

Joe Biden and Kamala Harris were named the Time Magazine’s “Person of the Year“. Who is your person of the year?

The Time Magazine made clear that the nomination is never only about the past, but also about the future. Joe Biden said that he is seeing “an outpouring of joy, hope, and renewed faith in tomorrow to bring a better day”. Kamala Harris frequently quoted her mother who told her “you may be the first to do many things, make sure you’re not the last”.

I found it incredibly difficult to decide who would be my Person of the Year. In any case, it had to be a nomination relevant for the future.

There are the therapists and doctors in Burgau, Munich and Pforzheim who recognised what caused Pádraig’s terrible pain in his hip over the past year and who were able to help him with a relatively small intervention so that he now can move his right leg again and can sleep through the night.

There are my colleagues in the An Saol Foundation who kept our Neurological Rehabilitation Day Centre open and running – after a months’ long closure from March to July.

There are the people who never stop working for the care and the rights of people with neurological injuries or conditions.

You can listen to some of them on the website of the An Saol Foundation.

Mags Rodgers is the Executive Director of the Neurological Alliance of Ireland; Ken Duffy is the co-owner of the Little Sport Bike Shop in Dublin who arranged sponsorship for a fundraising cycle; Professor Andreas Bender is the Clinical Director of the Therapieszentrum Burgau (near Munich); Kieran Loughran is the CEO of Headway Ireland.

My person of the year, though, has to be Pádraig who not just inspired all of us in the past but motivates us all to keep going into the future.

Below is one of the most amazing short videos of him in a park near our house. The video is a year or two old and still absolutely amazing. When we were just about to leave, Pádraig showed us what he can do with Dublin City Council’s exercise equipment.

So here is to another year, another decade.

Like Joe, we can see “an outpouring of joy, hope, and renewed faith in tomorrow to bring a better day”. And we will follow Kamala Harris’ mother’s advise. We’re “the first to do many things” and we’ll make sure that we won’t be the last.

A sign of things to come! Let’s just sail and have some fun. Get on board.

Dreamboaters, we’re looking at the stars

Ludwig

Tatatataaaa – Tatatataaaa
Each of his symphonies had a name. The Fifth had the Fate Motif, it was the “Schicksalssymphonie”.

He was born 250 years ago this year. The Fifth was performed for the first time on 22 December 1808 when Ludwig van Beethoven was in his thirties and fighting increasing deafness. At the time, Napoleon had occupied Vienna and the world was turned upside down.

E. T. A. Hoffmann wrote about Beethoven’s Fifth that the music “sets in motion terror, fear, horror, pain, and awakens the infinite yearning that is the essence of romanticism”. For many, he represents the romantic ideal of the tragic artist who defies all odds to conquer his own fate, the triumph of the human spirit.

In the words of Antoine de Saint-Exupery: “What saves a man is to take a step. Then another step.”

Here are some steps Pádraig took, some of the people he met and remembers on some of the journeys he made over the past few years.

He will continue on his journey in 2021. Take a step. Then another step.
With all of us. His Family. His Friends.
Defying all odds to conquer his fate.

A very happy 2021!

Jesus

The one who walked on water.
The one whose birthday we are about to celebrate.

There is no getting away from it. Christmas is definitely coming. And definitely in the next few days. They tried but didn’t manage to postpone it. The date, the winter solstice in the Roman calendar,  has been a very special one for thousands of years. It is a day that has changed the world every year, again and again. And no matter what happens, the world will not change it.

The celebration of the birth of Jesus is, of course, a celebration of a new beginning.

That new beginning has never been needed more urgently than today.

It took Jesus about 30 years before he managed to cross the Sea of Galilee on foot. It’s a lot to ask, but we will need a bit of that approach in the coming year.

It is the first time ever that attendance at Christmas Day mass was contingent on winning a seat in a parish-wide lottery. I need a sign.

A lot has been happening in Pádraig’s and in my life in the past week.

Last night we went into town to see the Christmas lights and all the hustle and bustle.

O’Connell Street was a beautiful as ever. The tree and crib so nice – though we were wondering why the shepherds had fallen at the back and how it came that the Three Kings had already arrived? The GPO had the most amazing light display on it and Santa was waiting for customers to give them a ride not on his sleigh but on his cart and horse.

Pádraig got a four-legged visitor that was being minded by one of his sisters. The two of them got on so well with each other that we started to think again about the possibility of a companion dog for Pádraig. We need to figure out the mechanics – but that should be possible. And then we would need the right dog…

Pádraig continued with the iPad-based challenges. Have a look at the sequence of numbers and see how long it takes you to name the next number in that sequence. It’s not rocket science, but there is a lot of different types of cognition involved when you think about it.

We put up a small tree beside Pádraig’s little fountain in the garden, in front of his window. Amazing that it was possible to sit outside that night, even after the sun had gone down, in the dark, for more than just a moment. It was so mild.

Pádraig received a chocolate Santa Teddy at the Christmas get-together in An Saol last week, as did each of the other day clients. He had a brilliant hour or two of Christmas Music, a small present and ham & turkey. Although it was all ‘distanced’ with a lot of precautions taken, it brought the true spirit of Christmas to everybody around.

When returning from the supermarket one day, I saw that someone must have anticipated my passing by, offering me his help. Like Bruce Almighty, I desperately need a sign. Yes I do. Like Bruce, I could do with some guidance.

But somehow I have the feeling that God will not share his phone number with me as he did with Bruce. My challenges will not be solved by a phone call to the man whose earthly, made-man birthday we are about to celebrate.

Instead it will be the happiness, joie de vivre, the joy in the eyes and the smile on the faces of our friends sharing An Saol’s life and living adventure that will guide me. Curious about what the New Year will bring and how we will be able to shape it.

Walking on water.

A big wave and best wishes from Pádraig to all his friends,
wherever they may be this Christmas time.

Nollaig shona dhuit

and in 2021 –

May the road rise up to meet you.

May the wind be always at your back.

May the sun shine warm upon your face;

the rains fall soft upon your fields and until we meet again,

may God hold you in the palm of His hand.

Angela

Angela Merkel, the most powerful woman in the world, ahead of Christine Lagard and Kamala Harris, went far beyond the Forty Shades of Green. Being the woman she is, she stuck with her style but went all out on the variations. For all colours. For Pantone.

Pantone is the company that developed the Pantone Matching System, allocating numbers to colours, a reference for everybody who works with colours.

They just revealed their colour(s) of the year 2021:
Ultimate Gray and Illuminating.

“Two extremely independent colors highlight how different elements come together to express this message of strength and hopefulness,” said Pantone VP Laurie Pressman.

If you are curious about how colours work you might be interested in ‘A Cultural History of Colour: The Modern Age’ by Sarah Street and Anders Steinvall.

There is a chapter in there, ‘Colour Power & Identity’, that “explores some of the ways that colour is used as a form of code intended to convey meaning linked to identity, persona, presence and power within a broader lexicon of visually-based signifiers.”

Are you feeling blue from time to time? Or do you sometimes see red? Feel yellow mellow? Do you see things in either black or white? Or do you see shades of grey? Are you all for going green? Can you see a silver lining? Do you love white mountains high? The dark blue sea? Some car insurance companies apparently charge more for red cars. Some people swear that violet is good for migraine. Therapists use green to relax clients suffering from anxiety.

I have no pictures of Pádraig this week. He has been doing his thing. And in a really brilliant way. I often wonder how he does this. He keeps going, surprises everybody with his wit, his humour, his incredible determination, his endless patience with the people around him.

How does he do it?

Why have I never asked him? Not necessarily and only to get the answer, satisfy my curiosity. But to let him know that I notice, every day, his strength and calm fighting spirit. Pure Zen.

He seems to have found the impossible: a way to live with this incredibly humongous change in his life. There are many moments, there are times, when that change must be nearly impossible to grasp, I am sure. But overall, he has found the balance I am struggling to find.

Christmas is just around the corner. Things will slow down even more. We’ll take days off. We’ll have lie-ins. We won’t have to get up at what often feels like the middle of the night to be somewhere at a certain time.

It’ll be a time when there is less pressure. Less heat. In anything we’ll do, or see, or experience. And then the nights will again be getting shorter and the days longer.

I wonder whether he’ll remember the time when he was in the hospital. He was in the hospital and we stayed at the Atlantic on Christmas Day, my favourite place in Hamburg. We went up the elevator to go to bed and shared the lift with Udo Lindenberg and his partner. We left him a copy of the ‘Dreamboat’ CD at the reception the next day. Pádraig didn’t see any of this. Though one winter, we went back with him to the Atlantic to show him another side of Hamburg.

There are always two sides to everything. The grey side and the yellow side. Not just in the COVID year. We don’t always see the bright side. But it’s always there. And what is more: we can choose to walk on the bright side of the street, out of the shadows. We don’t have to be at the dark end of the street, hiding. We can get from that dark end of the street to the bright side of the road.

You probably know Dido’s great song, White Flag. White is, of course, the colour of surrender. Her point is that she won’t.

I will go down with this ship
And I won’t put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I’m in love and always will be

I am all with Dido on this one.

Klaus

If you left your boots out last night, they were full of goodies this morning.

Because today, the 6th of December, is Nikolaus.

Would you know my name?
If I saw you in heaven
Would it be the same?
If I saw you in heaven

Saint Nicholas is the patron saint of sailors, merchants, archers, repentant thieves, prostitutes, children, brewers, pawnbrokers, unmarried people, and students in various cities and countries around Europe. His reputation evolved among the faithful, as was common for early Christian saints, he lived in the 4th century, and his legendary habit of secret gift-giving gave rise to the traditional model of Santa Claus (“Saint Nick”) through Sinterklaas.

There are a few reasons why today is special in my life. There is, of course, the boot full of sweets I remember from when I was young. There is my Saint’s Day, my ‘Namenstag’, just one day before on the 5th of December – in my younger years a day nearly more important than my birthday. There is the year when most of my family came over from Germany to celebrate with us my mother-in-law’s 80th birthday. And I went to Germany for the funeral of my best friend from college times, Klaus, who died at 43 years of age. On his ‘Namenstag’, St. Nikolaus. He died because he thought he could not carry on.

He was a social worker working with ‘problematic’ kids. They turned up at the funeral and stopped the proceedings to have a few minutes their way. Someone had brought a CD player and then – they played Tears in Heaven.

You will never listen to a song the same way once you have it associated with a particular event or circumstance. I can never listen to that song again without thinking of the cold dark morning in the little chapel in the graveyard.

Pádraig’s days are really busy, at times exhausting. It is a bit like going to work: getting up early in the morning, do your thing, and get back home tired, ready to relax and then get ready for a good night’s sleep.

And that is what it is primarily about: living a life with purpose. Doing stuff, participating, being integrated in a community. The therapy ‘just’ allows that to happen.

I must be strong
And carry on
‘Cause I know I don’t belong
Here in heaven

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