Lost in a space where I am amongst people never found. In a time that does’t count, anymore. On a journey that lost its beginning and its end, I feel so sore. There are people coming in and out who I see like shadows passing by; who I feel like pressure soft on my hand, my arm, my face; who I hear speaking in tongues I treasure like gems from a distance place; I want to be, on my way home. To myself, the world, that has not stopped to my surprise, that keeps on turning, that keeps important people thinking they need to do important things to succeed. When all you need, is love.

snowOn my way home. Da da da dada da dam. Da da da dadada dam. I watched it last night, Jon (of Yes fame) and Vangelis (the synthesizer wizard who was to but never did replace Rick Wakeman as keyboard player in Yes). I found them on Youtube, I watched them thinking of the year, 1981, this song came out and played all summer long. It’s a strange clip, the one lad very obviously doesn’t play the ‘guitar’, the other definitely not the piano. Somehow we’re going somewhere. No question, I’m not alone. Somehow I’ll find my way home.

We got a phone call just after 2pm this afternoon from the UKE that they had heard at very short notice that they had a bed there for Pádraig. A bit more than two hours later, Pádraig was back in the Schön-Klinik in Hamburg-Eilbek. It was like a home coming. There were smiles on nurses’ and doctors’ faces. The Oberärztin staid late to see him and to say ‘hello’ to us. Everybody so happy that they managed to get him a bigger room, with two TVs, a desk, and – wait – a bathroom! The change from the corporate UKE environment to the Schön-Klinik felt was amazing. There was relief, very warm and welcoming feelings, and a sense that Pádraig was getting back on track on his road to recovery. As we were swopping stories with the people about the New Year and all of what happened, it was almost like being amongst friends. Pádraig’s visitor this week explained to one of the nurses (who doesn’t speak English) all about the Irish language, and the nurse kept practicing his Irish trying to say ‘Pádraig’ the Irish way, until he gave up. I think we need more teachers over here, so we can start our own micro-community, Germany’s one and only micro-Gaeltacht.

RauchmelderThere were a few ‘firsts’ today: Pádraig was breathing on the ‘feuchte Nase’ without any air or oxygen support. It snowed for the first time this winter. And, at 07:15 this morning, we thought there had been a ring on our door – but decided we must have dreamt. Until the door bell rang again. Willy.tel had arrived to check our smoke detectors. Rauchwarnmelderwartungsdienst. No joke. They had laminated company iDs. No, seriously. The Genossenschaft is paying a company to kick you into action at 07:15 in the morning (for those of us living on Irish time: 06:15am) to come into your apartment, with a ladder and a pretend-iPad, to climb up the ladder (not that the ceilings are particularly high here, to the contrary), to take down the smoke alarms, to press the button, listen to the terrible sound they make, put them back under the ceiling, climb down under the ladder – and move on to the next room. I had to think of Officer Obie in ‘Alice’s Restaurant’ (remember Alice?) who had found the envelope under this heap of garbage with Arlo Guthrie’s address on it… Before they left, I had to sign a form, with the tip of my finger, on their pretend-iPad, and was then handed over a two-sided multicolour brochure which contained loads of pictures essential fire-safety tips like: Each time the alarm sounds, check whether there is a fire. I got it laminated and nailed it on the wall in our hall way. Just in case.

YES.

Today’s German Music Tip
Scorpions, Winds of Change (performed in 1991). Never said it would be just music in German. Scorpions are probably one of Germany’s most successful international acts. Almost 68m hits for this song alone:
“The future’s in the air
I can feel it everywhere
Blowing with the wind of change”
What’s hot
On my way home
What’s cold
UKE
The German word/phrase/verse of the day
Rauchwarnmelderwartungsdienst

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